life at 2013

Yey!! 29 days more and we're all saying goodbye to the most dramatic year. Despite of so many things that happened to me and to our world, I am still here, standing strong with love and with God. Here are some places that made my 2013 a good one to remember:

Holyweek - Bicol
(March 2013)
legaspi, albay-- as promised to my dear friend Paolo -- I introduced him to our dear Mayon na magayon.
* After a tiring 12-hour ride, we witnessed that majestic volcano. :)
*Sunday was the best. We rejoiced on His glory. Salubong on a Sunday morning and paguriran beach after. 







Puerto Galera
(April 2013)

The much awaited office friends get-away. Kaya lang, only three of us made it. But it was fun, my first banana experience. The resort is cool. A good place away from stress in Manila. Foods were great lalo na yung sinigang na isda. So fresh, relaxing and renewed!










 
Heller Baler!
(May 2013)

How can I forget this. My dearest ping's birthday celebration. A not so wallet friendly type of celeb. But good thing, we became cool surfers in an instant. After two attempts, we made it! so proud! :) Aha! Yung birthday song kinanta sa surfer's lane! haha!
We also experienced the super lamig falls situated at the tagong tagong part ng baler.. :) I dont know the exact place. Lol!

MMC - Subic
(July 2013)
It's Lord's time! Despite problems and challenges, I still managed to enjoy and trust this weekend retreat with the Lord. Together with my brothers and sisters in SFC, we made the conference successful! Experiences of different sharers were all amazing. I learned so many things! Who else would love us but the one and only true Lover of all times. ♥




First Pilgrimage(September 2013)

It was my very first pilgrimage. An event held by Jesus of Nazareth - EDSA Shrine Parish. Together with my partners in lakwatsas, we visited four churches in the province of Quezon. First stop was at Kamay ni Hesus in Lucban. Noah's Arc, Garden of Eden, Station of the Cross Images and other biblical figures. Relaxing indeed! The healing mass was also soul relieving.  The next church was at Tayabas - St. Michael the Archangel Parish. One of the oldest church we visited during that time. We found there the wishing chair, our personal archangels and others. Third church we visited was St. Francis of Assisi Church in Sariaya.. and ..The last stop was at St. John in Tiaong, the church known as the pink one.  :)

So definitely, those are the highlights of my travels this year. hopefully I can visit some other interesting places in years to come!

To God be the Glory! ♥

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Moments

Whenever im alone, there are several things crossing my mind. What if people do this or that, or what if im not like this and im like that, or what if the earth is not round, or what if there’s no real God, what if there’s no spaces between every finger, what if I die today, what if I meet someone later, what if I choose to hate, what if people don’t know how to love..what if.. several what ifs and lots of questions that even Google cant answer.

Me too cant answer all those questions. And to end those silly things, I just close my eyes, breathe out, open my eyes again, look at the sky and finally my questions are all gone.. right then I realized that im blessed enough to have those questions than to have answers. Imagine my life if I can answer every question. Ironic..

Life here on earth cannot be measured of how many quizzes have we passed, how many recitations have we perfectly answered, how many interviews have we perfectly went through and how many promotions we got..life will not end there..life is not measured on how many digits we have in our bank accounts, and how much liability we need to settle. Life is really not like that. But when people drop their unsolicited advices, life becomes like that. And life becomes complicated, and becomes a never ending competition.

I am reminded of what Fr. Noel Nugid said during our 2013 MMC in Subic. FREE YOURSELF FROM COMPETITION. A simple statement, yet hard to achieve. Imagine this world without competition. Ironic again. Competition is everywhere. And the moment we welcome it, we are facing life, in practical ways. Yes, in practical ways, world ways, in material ways. A competition is a battle and a battle is hard to end. . and on earth, that’s the truth.

The moment of truth is the moment with God. God is true. God never boast that He made everything, He made you, He made me.. God never competes.. God never settle in practical ways, He made everything in His ways, and His only way is LOVE.

Maybe in life, one of the moments we need to remember is the moment with our Redeemer. We may sometimes ignore it, but it’s the best moment ever. He never asked what we have done and what we have failed to do. He never wanted anything from us, He just wants us. He needs us. He loves us. God is the only practical way that we can have. He must be our only reason why we live. He is God!

The only moment of truth is the only moment with God. Cherish those times that we are talking to Him. Remember those hours that He is embracing us in joy and in pain. How blessed we are to have him as  our Beloved!

Hope you enjoy moments with Him, like I do.

Btw, I wanna share with you our theme song each moment that we are together. He's the sweetest!

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throwback thursday

Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa loob ng isang araw dalawang beses kang naging subject sa mga pag uusap namen ng mga kaibigan ko. Bakit nga ba? May kailangan ba akong ayusin at balikan?

Halos apat na taon na ang nakaraan ng nagdesisyon akong tapusin ang kung ano man ang meron tayo. Nagdesisyon akong mag isa. hindi ko na kaya, at pakiramdam ko wala namang magandang maidudulot satin ang kung anu man ang meron tayo. Ayaw mo, gusto ko, wala kang nagawa. 

naalala ko lang to.. :)

Minahal kita sa paraang alam ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong pagmamahal ang gusto mo pero yun ako at yun ang alam kong paraan ng pagpapakitang mahal kita. Alam kong marami akong pagkukulang at maaring naabuso ko ang kabaitan mo sakin. Alam ko kasing hindi mo ako matitis at aantayin mo ako ano man ang gawin ko.   

Masaya ako sa maikling oras na nakasama kita. At mas higit na masaya ako sa maraming taong naghintay ka. Pero siguro nga may mga bagay na hindi talaga para satin. 

Nasaktan ako nung nakita kong masaya kana din sa iba. Unfair talaga ako kasi nagsimula na naman akong magparamdam sayo. Hindi ko lang talaga kayang tanggapin sa mga panahong yon na hindi na ako ang priority mo. Na pwede ka palang ngumiti na hindi na ako ang rason.

salamat sa kantang to..

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sayo. Kung isa man ako sa naging rason kung bakit ka ganyan, sana magkaron tayo ng oras na magkausap ulit. Kung bakit pa kasi ngayon ko lang din napag isipan ang mga bagay na ito. Baka nga may kailangan pa tayong ayusin at tuluyang tapusin.

Mahal kita bilang isang kaibigan, at hindi mawawala yun kasi dun tayo nagsimula.

Salamat sa pagmamahal mo sakin araw araw. Ramdam ko yun, hanggang ngayon.

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JUNE 4, 2013

Maybe im just happy..whatever reasons I might have.. I just like the feeling of being happy..my deepest desire to love the Lord has been a constant reminder of how I should live life.. I love the feeling of having this unbroken relationship with Him..

Waking up in the morning and feeling the warmth of His love is incomparable.  Waking up everyday excites me.. sleeping excites me too.. meeting Him in my dreams, ahhh..i cant even explain. . I love Him. And I’m falling in love with Him everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.. I love Him and will keep on loving Him..

You are my inspiration.. You are my everyday.. You are my everything..

Haaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy..ang sarap mabuhay..really.. I love my life with You Lord!

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on a rainy wednesday

I think my heart will explode if I’ll not let it out.

Receiving a precious gift from God is really something to be proud of. How He healed my heart and let me move is something to be thankful for. Somehow, it helped me for some time. But Lord, it’s starting all over again. It is now approaching my heart. I’m afraid again.

I miss someone today, and last day, and the other last day, and the day before the other last. I want to see him, talk to him, laugh with him, and eat with him and so on. But Lord, I’m afraid again. You know how scared I am.

The fact that I’m thinking of him again makes me so nervous. That I might get back to that feeling and start my life in mess all over again. The fact that I’m always reminded by the song he sang, makes my heart long for him again. Lord I’m afraid.

I don’t know how I reached this moment.  And Lord,  I’m truly afraid.

It’s only me and You Lord. Let’s work together.

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BIBLE PEOPLE AT THEIR WORST by Francis Kong

Active in church. Respected in the community. Possessing boyish charms and to most people the most important feature of them all – earning lots of money in business.
Suddenly everything disappeared. Business fails. Absent from the church scene. Frequently seen in the company of shady characters and separated from his family – living with another girl. If the descriptions fit someone you knew, don’t be surprised. The descriptions fit many people I know too. 

The question now is this. When you meet someone like the one I described, what would your reactions be?
 

Now before you start pronouncing judgment on that person and before you begin rattling off 10 or 20 bible verses together with some cross references, something written by Max Lucado from his book entitled “God Came Near” would be very beneficial for us to remember. I’ve added a little something to his words in order to emphasize so don’t fault him – blame it on me in case you don’t like it.
 

Listen carefully:
For thousands of years using his wit and charm, man had tried to be friends with God. And for thousands of years, he had let God down more than he had lifted Him up. He’s done the very thing he promised he’d never do. It was a fiasco.
Even the holiest of the heroes sometimes forgot whose side they were on.
Some of the scenarios in the Bible look more like the adventures of Sinbad the sailor-than stories for vacation bible school.
 

Remember these characters?
Aaron. Right-hand man-to Moses. Witness of the Plagues. Member of the “Red Sea Riverbed Expedition.” Holy priest of God. But if he was so saintly, what is he doing leading the Israelites in fireside aerobics in front of the golden calf?
The sons of Jacob. The fathers of the tribes of Israel. Great-grandsons of Abraham. Yet, if they were so special, why were they gagging their younger brother and sending him to Egypt? Talk about kidnap cases in our country – they’re mere copies. Not originals.
David. The man after God’s own heart. The King’s king. The giant-slayer and songwriter. He’s also the guy whose glasses got steamy as a result of a bath on a roof. Unfortunately, the water wasn’t his, nor was the woman he was watching. From peeping Tom to Do Juan to dirty Harry and all these in just a couple of verses and chapters.
 

Now what about Samson. Swooning on Delilah’s couch, drunk on the wine, perfume, and soft lights. A glass of Dom Perignon, a douse of Chanel Perfume No. 5, Sinatra’s and some caviar on the side. She’s putting on something more comfortable. Victoria’s Secret revealed. She’s thinking, I know I put those shears somewhere. In case you’ve forgotten, this is the bible’s original Viagra guy. His first words in the bible were “I see a woman.” A real He-man with a She-weakness.
Adam adorned in fig leaves and stains of forbidden fruit. Good thing leaves don’t make good clothes substitutes or else I would be out of business when I was still in the garments industry.
Moses throwing both a staff and a temper tantrum.
King Saul looking into a crystal ball for the will of God. Practicing Fung Suy I suppose.
Noah, drunk and naked in his own tent.

These are the chosen ones of God? This is the royal lineage of the King?
These are the ones who were to carry out God’s mission?
It’s easy to see the absurdity.

Why didn’t God give up? Why didn’t He let the globe spin off its axis?
Even after generations of people had spit in His face, He still loved them. After a nation of chosen ones had stripped Him naked and ripped His incarnated flesh, He still died for them. And even today, after billions have chosen to prostitute themselves before the pimps of power, fame and wealth, He still waits for them.

It is inexplicable. It doesn’t have a drop of logic nor a thread of rationality.
And yet, it is that very irrationality that gives the gospel its greatest defense. For only God could love like that.[1]

So the next time you see and meet someone struggling in the pit. Don’t give up on him; just remind him of God’s Grace. Help him recover but love him as God loves him too. Warts, pimples and all. By the way. The next time you get disappointed seeing someone failing in his walk with Christ. Look at the mirror. Don’t be surprised if you find warts and pimples too.

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oh my, tay!

Isusumbong kita sa tatay ko!!!!! Subukan mong awayin ako!!!!

Saktong sakto..ganyang ganyan ang mga katagang binibitawan ng mga kalaro ko sa tuwing magtatalo kami sa mga simpleng laro.. pag yan na ang lumabas sa bibig nila, mas lalo akong tumatapang.. mas lalo akong hindi nagpapadaig.. pero ang totoo, nanginginig na sa takot ang buong katawan ko..

Bakit nga ba madalas ipagmayabang ng bawat bata na may tatay silang masusumbungan.. bakit nga ba in an instant yan ang sinasabi nila sa tuwing nakakaramdam sila ng pang-aapi..bakit nga ba takot na takot silang magpaalam sa mga tatay nila sa tuwing may mga lakad silang pupuntahan..bakit nga ba kahit pinayagan ka na ng nanay, eh kailangan pa ding magpaalam sa tatay at sa kanya pa din ang huling hatol.. bakit nga ba tay?

Bukod sa pagiging haligi at pundasyon ng tahanan, si tatay ang last to decide.. sa kanya nakasalalay kung matutuloy ka sa lakad na matagal niyo ng pinagplanuhan ng mga barkada mo.. sa kanya nakasandal ang paghihiganti mo sa bawat kaklase o kalarong nang-api sayo..kay tatay nakasalalay kung pwede ka ng ligawan o manligaw..si tatay ang magsasabi ng tamang edad ng pag-inom at pakikipagrelasyon..minsan pa nga, si tatay ang magdedecide kung anu ang magiging future mo..

Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na sa bawat yugto ng buhay mo, sa paglaki mo at sa pagharap mo sa yong kinabukasan, laging present si tatay para umalalay sayo..

Masarap nga ba talaga sa pakiramdam? Pano kung ang dapat na maging haligi ng tahanan ay di kayang itayo ang kanyang haligi? Pano kung nabibigatan sya sa pagtayo nito? O pano kaya kung hindi pa sya handa sa ganitong buhay? Pano nga ba? O kaya naman, pano niya kakayanin ito kung mismong buhay niya ay hindi niya maitayo? Pano nga ba tatay?

Sa pabago bagong panahon, minsan natatanggap na ng lipunan ang kaduwagan ng mga tatay. Tanggap na ng bawat mamamayan ang kahinaan ng mga tatay. Tanggap na ng karamihan pag sinabi nilang hindi nila kaya..

Malamang ay tanggap na nga ng lahat ang ganitong eksena sa kanilang buhay. Pero naisip kaya nila kung tanggap na din ba ng numero unong dahilan ng kanilang pagiging tatay ito? Tanggap na nga ba ng mga anak nila ito?

Ang lahat ng mga una kong nabanggit ay ni sa panaginip di ko naranasan.. nangngailangan ng matinding pang-unawa, pananalig sa Diyos, positibong pananaw sa buhay, maraming inspirayson, matatag na puso at malalim na pagmamahal sa pamilya para matanggap kong hindi lahat ng bata ay mabibiyayaan ng isang haligi ng tahanan..

Maganda sanang ipanalangin na hindi na maulit o maranasan ng kahit na sinong bata ang ganitong sitwasyon.. maganda sanang makita ang mundong ito na ang bawat bata ay naglulumpasay sa kakaiyak mapayagan lang ng kanilang tatay sa paglalaro..

Wala naman sigurong taong nangarap na itayo ang bahay nila na walang pundasyon.. ikaw ba, pangarap mo ba to? Sa palagay ko, hindi rin diba?

PS. Super advance happy father’s day sa lahat ng kakilala kong tatay!magpakatatag kayo! Naniniwala kaming lahat na kaya niyo yan.. J

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1 .0 .>. 3.

Love. a four letter word.. defined by different words. unexplained by many people. a source of happiness. interpreted with different actions. a many splendor thing. soft. kind. unselfish. not angry. patient. happy with truth.

Love has its own power. it can heal, it can bind, it can create relationship, it can rule the world.

Love is a gift from another love to another love. Love revolves around love. Love is from love to love. It’s immeasurable.

Love is created for every people. It is never created to ruin a life nor end a life. It is never created to hurt someone.  It doesn’t go hand in hand with pain. It hates hurts.

Love is powerful. It saved, saves and will continue saving lives. It saves us from sin. It is more powerful than we can ever imagine.

Love is love.

And Love is intended to grow. Love should start from within us for we all have the power to love. Love is worth sharing. It’s worth giving. And it’s worth fighting for.

Love is peace. Love is everywhere. Love is all around.

Share love, share it today, share it right now!

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on a feb 21

i dont think it's a good idea to write today..ohwell, but i guess i need to say something..but i dont know what to say..oh so magulo, really..

my day started with a bang!ohyeah, basagan ng eardrums on a thursday morning with my highschool theme songs from LINKIN PARK! their songs are really magulo and maingay and  my spirit should rise with those songs..on the contrary, nalulungkot ako sa mga lyrics..makaabsorb ng lyrics diba?

♪ I become so numb, i cant feel you there, i become so tired, im so much more aware..
♫why does it feel like night today?

im so lost and duno what to do..gusto ko magreflect but then i cant see myself.. whats bothering me?duh..
maybe i need a refresher, a refreshment, a massage, a bicol vacay, my sister, my mama dear..Oh god, what do i really need?

anyway, walang kwenta ang post na to.. :P i just wana write these things..im wishing and hoping na susunod kong post ay maayos naman.. Yeah, im wondrin lately sa mga post ko, walang pinatutunguhan.. :))

oh dear God, help me..

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katangahan 101

ang post na ito ay para sa lahat ng matatalinong tanga..na tulad ko..anu daw?!

una,

-ang nakakatamad na feeling sa paliligo tuwing umaga, wag pahirapan ang sarili, wag maligo, period..

-yung gutom na gutom kana, sabay nag-aya ung crush mong, kain ka, sa sobrang pacute, sabi mo, busog ako..

-ang pagkauntog sa pinto na ang height mo ay below 5'1"..sobrang tanga..

-nakalimutan ang birthday ng mahalagang tao..grr

-di marunong gumamit ng blackberry and iphone..

-di mamemorize na street, 10 times ng napuntahan..

-nakatulog sa fx/bus, end process, nakalampas..

-pagtawid sa may no jaywalking sign..

-kumain ng allergy banned foods..

-pagpindot ng number pad ng keyboard, akala landline fon..

pic from http://www.wattpad.com/story/1025988-katangahan-nga-naman

-hahawakan ang fon, akala mouse ng pc..haysst!

-mag-antay sa wala..

-bulag bulagan sa mga totoong nakikita..

-magkunwaring masaya..

-gwapong gwapo sa taong di tiyak..haha

- di maspell ng tama sa text ang friend,receive, at tomorrow..

- and ang pinakalatest sa lahat, epic: nawrong send sa taong topic ng usapan.. awts!

ang daming tanga sa mundo noh?wag ka ng dumagdag pa ah..

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Lean on Me

times like this, sarap umiyak..hindi dahil sa nasasaktan ako, kundi dahil sa hindi na ako makatawa sa sobrang saya..

each and everyday is a gift from Him..wala na akong maisip pang iba pagnarerealize ko kung gano Sya kabait sakin..Sa araw araw na ginawa Niya satin, di man lang Niya nakalimutan na araw araw din akong iremind kung gano Niya ako kamahal at ipaalala sakin na mabuti akong tao sa kabila ng lahat..

nag-eemo na naman nga ako, pero di ko lang mapigilan magpasalamat sa Kanya sa pagbibigay sakin ng mga taong tinuring akong higit pa sa isang kapamilya..Bukod sa binigyan Niya na ako ng maganda at maayos na pamilya, nagbigay pa din Sya ng bonus..Mga anghel sa paligid ko..mga anghel na nagabay sa pagtahak ko ng mundong papalapit sa Kanya..

03.13.2011- my first ever SFC birthday..
          salamat ate wilma, ate abie, joyce, che and apple for a very wonderful surprise..2nd time palang akong nasurprise and God knows how i love surprises..
         salamat kuya raymond, kuya bert, eric and yury sa makabagbag damdaming song..first time ko naexperience na may kumakanta just for me.. :))
         
kailangan talaga ng special mention sa mga taong yan..sila ang naging inspirasyon ko ng tuloy tuloy na service..syempre eto pa:

to my girlfriends, ever dearest pasig/baguio/kanlaon girlfriends : mapie, juana,rose and ibon..my stress relievers..yung tipong wala namang kwenta yung pinag-uusapan, kung makatawa, billion worth.. :))))

and obkors ms. portugal---ms.marvida-- whatever reasons, or kahit walang reason, may reason..ang gulo diba..that's how we are..

leslie dear- my financer these days..hayst..stressful ang buhay kong di kita kasama..
 
kuya roy- for hearing my super duper sentiments before..you are a real brother..

and the boys of my life..susko! :P

noy- grow-up please!! :)) you know you're special..kasi alam naman nameng may deperensya ka..ahahahaha :))

and obkors again, my ever shock absorber and nakakaintindi sa di maintindihan kong utak, 
renan-- alam mo na, may sayad talaga ako.. :P basta salamat..

my original dear- your love will always be like a sun, that lights up my whole world..

haassyyttt..end of the world na ba?ba't ako nagpapasalamat ng bongga?
anyway, every year before my birthday, bigla nalang bumibisita sa isip ko ang mga taong dapat kong pasalamatan taon taon..bukod sa pamilya ko at kay Idol, kailangan ko din silang bigyan ng konting atensyon for them to know how special they are to me..di man nila lahat mabasa to, God knows that I will be forever grateful for the friendship they continuously give to me..

:P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMbEOofifXY

yan ang song na nag inspire sakin to write this.. :))


         

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wanted:winning strike

strike one..
strike two..
strike three..

one more strike friend and he'll be doing it..

that's how his life works..striking all over again..striking for many things, striking for survival, striking for attention, striking for love, striking for honor.. he's life is never easy..it's not a simple alphabet to memorize and not a no-brainer job..he's life is full of striking back and forth..

he lacks attention despite of pouring every minute of his life to the people he loves. he wants friendship and affection. he wants it intimate. he wants it deeper..he wants it pure..

but no one can understand what he's going through.. nobody cares about him, being hurt for so many times.. no one dares to go through his wounded heart.. they never cared at all.. they don't have a minute for him..

and so he goes striking again and again.. he's tired yet he still tries.. he feels every pain but he's looking forward for every victorious strike. he almost gave up, but thinking of his love for them, he continuously strike..

he hopes someday, his strikes will worth everything and will mean so many things..

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sopdrinks

tara kain tayo,--sabi niya..
cge, gutom narin naman ako-- sabi niya rin..

sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, kakain silang magkasama..tuwang tuwa na siya habang papasok sa kanilang kakainan..di niya maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman..pagod, masakit ang ulo at paa sa maghapon nilang pagsasama, ngunit mas ramdam niya ang tuwa sa mga oras na yon..

order na tayo--sabi nya..
cge, --eto sakin-- sabi naman nya..

nabubuo na sa isip nia ang mga larawang magkasama silang pupunta sa mesa, habang ipinagdadala sya ng inorder nilang pagkain at sya ay wala ng gagawin kundi ang umupo at simulan ang pagkain...

diet.com pic

oooooopppss..rewind rewind..nais niyang irewind ang tagpong nasa isip nia..haayy, mas pinili niyang wag nang bumalik sa realidad at ipagpatuloy ang larawang nabubuo sa kanyang malawak na imahinasyon..mas gusto niyang abangan ang mga susunod na tagpo na naglalaro sa isip niya.. subalit...

ilapag mo na yang mga softdrinks na dala mo---sabi nya..
ahhh..oo nga pala..sori ah..upo na tayo---tanging nasabi na lamang nya.. :(

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taon natin toh!

eto na yun!!! it's 2013.. gash gash gash..

gasgas na ang mga issue nung 2012:

-corona impeachment

-nagchampion Bmeg ---->wala ako sa bigdome, my pj ♥.

-RH bill----> bahala kayo, ginusto nio yan.. basta ayoko pa rin niyan!!grrr!

-claudine-tulfo fight

-walang hanggan wedding

-habagat na kaybigat

-pagkatalo ni pacqiao

-janine for Ms. U

-gangnam style

-dami kong gastos

-nainlove ako...... homaygash! anu daw?

at yan ang 2012 na ready for take off at wala ng balikan..

2013 na, new year for all of us..of course, lahat tayo nangangarap ng mas bonggang year ngayon.. and thy will be done..let's dream and pray and work for that dream.. si Idol, laging andyan lang yan para saatain, proven and tested, DI NIYA TAYO IIWAN..

people of the world, embrace natin ang 2013 and let's claim it ----- TAON NATIN TO!!!! ♥

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