on a rainy wednesday

I think my heart will explode if I’ll not let it out.

Receiving a precious gift from God is really something to be proud of. How He healed my heart and let me move is something to be thankful for. Somehow, it helped me for some time. But Lord, it’s starting all over again. It is now approaching my heart. I’m afraid again.

I miss someone today, and last day, and the other last day, and the day before the other last. I want to see him, talk to him, laugh with him, and eat with him and so on. But Lord, I’m afraid again. You know how scared I am.

The fact that I’m thinking of him again makes me so nervous. That I might get back to that feeling and start my life in mess all over again. The fact that I’m always reminded by the song he sang, makes my heart long for him again. Lord I’m afraid.

I don’t know how I reached this moment.  And Lord,  I’m truly afraid.

It’s only me and You Lord. Let’s work together.